WELCOME
I am Goldragoness. A starseed from a planet in another universe. In the following postings I will attempt to explain how I have come to this understanding. I hope you will find my story informative and helpful.

SOME BACKGROUND INFORMATION
As a child I felt as though I did not belong on earth and came to understand that I am not native to this planet.
My thirst for answers has taken me down some dark roads full of things that go bump in the night. *LOL* And other roads full of magic and beauty.
I learned to use the tarot, astrology, numerolgy, meditation, forms of mediumship, astral and multidimensional travel, and hard-headed stubborness as vehicles for my spiritual growth.
In August of 2000 I was recovering from the most intense learning experience I have ever had. A tale for another page, me thinks. *S*
For what ever reason I decided I was going to understand what MarriAna was talking about or die trying. *LOL* And now here I am with a fairly clear picture of my mission.

ON BEING A DRAGON
I am a dragon. I have known this for longer than I can remember. But it has only been in the last 5 years that I have admitted it publically...for fear of institutions and padded rooms...*LOL*
Over the last four months I have received details and specifics that I had begun to think I would never find. I know where my home world is, where the stargate can be found, and what my true form is. But the best, was meeting my new guide. I had not felt specific guides around me for a couple of years.
Since I know there is a spider lady hanging over my head reading this I will take some time to go into more depth.

From There to Here
My whole life has been a journey toward self discovery.But this phase really took over the wheel around April 2001. The following is a trance I shared with MarriAna. Bless her for saving it...*LOL*
April 8, 2001
I was reading at the time, top of my head got all tinglie so I laid the book down and got into a meditation stance.. I could see light rays emanating from my chakras, this felt fine, then a spider started coming toward me towards each chakra, the one on my heart chakra met my dragon that stays on it and it raised itself up on it's back legs and sorta hugged my dragon, and I was enjoying the whole thing... the spider which hugged my dragon was black, like a mirror of obsidian, was a beautiful creature, shiny and reflective of the multicolored flames my dragons were breathing... I did not see the other spiders, I just knew they were there... then the spiders started to weave a pure white cocoon around me, (now if you knew the reoccuring nightmare I had as a child you would be amazed that this did not bother me in the least) after they were through my dragons blew flames on it and now i have this cocoon thing around me with multicolored flames dancing along the woven strands... then the one spider sorta waved her leg at me and they all left. I really enjoyed the experience and slept soundly.

I remember that I did not realize how significant this was at the time. It must have been that ego of mine trying to keep me distracted. **LOL**

Now I See.....

In spite of my inner knowledge about my true identity. I had never been able to see my self totally in the form of a dragon as we know them here on earth. This was something that has caused me continuous sorrow. Then in late November or early December I had a dream. I only remember that I was able to look at myself from all sides. Not like looking in a mirror. This is the me I saw.
I had my basic humanoid face but the eye brows were more like ridges then just a line of hair. My eyes were not cat like or humanoid. They were like crystals with a point of light in the center and the color would change. my mouth had lips but my teeth were harder and sharper somehow if not exactly fangs. I had long dark red hair but my ears were more pointed and there were 3 horns on my head. My front side was flesh but the backside was mostly covered with scales. The scales also covered most of my upper arms and shoulders. Just above the shoulder blades there is an additional area where my wings extend from. Where the tail bone of a humanoid would end my tail began. From the top back part of my head started ridges that went all the way down my body to the tip of my tail. my feet and hands were basically humanoid but across the top of my palms and feet there was a version of small scales and finger and toe nails were very pronounced. Looking more like claws then nails.
My wings were one of the most beautiful aspects of my dragonself. The skeletal support structure was visible and darker in color. The main wing looked shear and almost translucent. I know there was coloring to me that is not humanoid at all but my memory is vague. I know that Gold, Violet, and Pink are the major colors and that these colors can appear to shift and swirl. Beyond that I am reluctant to commit myself to just yet.

Location of My Stargate

In the constellation Draco the eye is the planet Eltanin. Theis is also where the stargate to my home world and universe are located.
How I came to this understanding is an interesting tale. More proof that spirit uses what ever means are at hand to get thru to us.*LOL*
How I found my Stargate...
A couple of weeks ago I decided to watch the movie Dragonheart. I had seen it before but just wanted to watch it again. In the end the dragon must be slain to rid the world of the evil king. When he dies his body metamorphosises into a golden cloud and he becomes part of the constellation Draco with the other dragons. At that moment, when he becomes part of the constellation, I realised that if I could fly straight into the eye of the Draco constellation I would find the Stargate that would take me home. As I said before, you never know how or with what tools spirit will give you information.

Mending the Matrix/ Meeting My Guide

Around January 28th 2002, I connected with MarriAna and Selune in a chat. MarriAna asked me if I would connect with Selune. As I remember I was unsure of my purpose but followed MarriAnas direction. At that time I had the impression that Selunes red beams were damaged and I was supposed to help her heal/mend them. I was a little skeptical as to what I could do but trusted MarriAna’s instincts. We chit chatted for a little while and then I followed MarriAna’s lead and just opened myself to Spirit and connected with Selune. I am still not sure exactly what I did but the beams were mended and the matrix was repaired. I felt someone behind me at one point and discovered that it was my guide from my home world. The whole experience was tremendous. I would like to state at this time that there are a lot of technical details I do not understand or know. I just have a “sense” about things a “knowing” within me, if you will. Since I have spent many years following spirit and connecting with them I am able to trust and be open to what ever comes. There is a reason why I do not get all the information like MarriAna and others do. I cannot tell you what it is I just know it is this way. I also know that at a later date I will understand. Part of my mission right now is to ba able to do what I did with Selune. Even though I do not understand all the details of what I am doing. Spirit works in strange ways sometimes, but when I trust and follow, the end result is always a wonderful one. I trusted and followed and was able to help Selune mend the mission matrix, in return I meet my dragon guide.

MarriAna here, let me correct that a bit.. I did not say you have to mend anyone´s beams, I said Selune is supposed to connect her - intact and active and very powerful - red beams with the rest of the soul family formation participants. This connecting was all that was needed to further acivate the matrix, it was a >missing connection< between Selune and the rest of the soul group members. I was not talking about Selune´s matrix either, but about the mission matrix which involves several soulgroups, including Selune´s, yours, and mine.
What you did during the connection which Selune established was to respond to her beams, and actually they activated you, resulting in the appearance of your dragon guide. It also connected you to the matrix.
The reason you do not access the same info I access is that it would be very boring if all of us accessed the same puzzle piece. Doesn´t work that way.

Ok Marriana, I made a couple changes to my post about mending the matrix.

It still reflects my perspective...*LOL* BTW I am well aware how dull life would be if we all accessed the same way.*chuckles* Also, I would state another point along this line. This information has just been clarified for me in the last 48 hours or so. For the purpose of completing my mission here, I usually see the forest instead of each tree. This works for me because I have an instinctive trust of my spirit guides and Source. I am thereby able to move quickly to the next point. And as I move forward...and some times backward,the details are filled in. This often happens by connecting with others. On the other hand some need to see the tree instead of the forest. Gathering each detail to complete the picture. The biggest difficulty that can arise for either method is that balance between the two equally accurate and valid methods, can be lost. This could result in the first method user becoming unable to see the trees for the forest....or the second method user not seeing the forest for the trees. *LOL* IMHO anyway. This is one way to explain my understanding.....But it is, after all, my understanding. I hope this makes sense to all you readers out there....*LOL*

This picture came to me when you were talking about the 3-triangle formation of your soul family, and said the 3 triangles would come together to form a bigger triangle and in the middle the universal source-energy would come in. I don´t know if I got it right, I thought the empty triangle in the middle would be the plane of development. Does it resonate, or do you think it´s different?
It is a bit different but thank you for your efforts..*HUG* I will make the changes and post the new picture. Also i am in process of changing some of my grapics.

Feb. 28, 2002

Oh my, I have gotten so far behind.....please bare with me as I need to get a lot of recent events posted here. But first, I have to edit the sessions. Most are with MarriAna and last at least 4-6 hours. Hence the need to edit......LOL
I promise to have some new postings very soon.
Also I need to change the picture of the triangles but have not been too successful. They need to stack ontop each other so they make a 9 pointed star. Any help with this would be appreciated.
Goldragoness
March 4,2002

I am wondering how I am going to wade my way thru all the sessions and chats I have been involved in the last 2 weeks or so. I have saved everything but when I open a file and attempt to go thru and edit it down to what would be of use on this page I become frustrated and my brain tries to shut down on me. I have come to understand that when this happens it usually means that I have a block some where about doing this. At this point I have no clue what or where that block is. Although I had considered just plain feeling overwhelmed. However just taking one file or even page at a time still does not help. I am posting this to my page for general information and so that any one that reads this and has any ideas about what might be happening with this can email me with thier thoughts and ideas. I am open to suggestions.

March 25, 2002

An update: as a result of my many sessions with MarriAna and the resulting reactions with in myself I have become aware of more details and truths about this incarnation and my purpose and mission.
March 23,2002
There is a joy in me beyond any I have known. I have meet some of my own. There are others from my world and I am not alone here. We are triggering momories for one another and I am putting together this inforamtion to be posted on a page about my home world. Please return here soon and find the link.