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For a very long time i had no experience and received little information that would resonate with what MarriAna or Sworedhel were sharing but recently things changed... lol This is perhaps due to the fact that i am more open now to this kind of things (meaning non humanoid guides and such) and to expanding my awareness as much as i can. one more thing before starting to describe my experience...I am a Toltec at heart (---if you remember what Carlos Castaneda was talking about) and this somehow kept me from being more open. Strange if we keep in mind that all teachings should give us a wider outlook instead of narrowing the one we already have. Meaning whatever your belief system tells you and whatever you may have experinced so far, always be ready to explore. Trance experience-- 15.01.2002 I have tried to connect with the entities that are acting as my guides at the moment. Probably due to the recent talk i had with MarriAna i was open enough to perceive creatures that resemble to some degree those in Ariana. For instance, there was a golden-orange beetle (i'll add a drawing of it soon). It had 3 pairs of tentacles near the mouth--better put where the mouth should have been because there was none-- an elongated body and a tail. It lives in my belly button and I got the impression (i knew) that it lives in my belly button,activates and maybe even upgrades (though i am not sure what this means) my lower chakras (if not all of them). The second guide i felt was something of a Cerberus i think to be responsible for my shielding. I cannot really say what it looked like and I won't go into more details for now. In any case, if these two guides might be an aspect i integrated already, i certainly have some doubts when it comes to my most impressive guide, who is a dragon. At this stage I tried to find out first of all what my real name is and Alaaris came up. Lol, i heard it and for some reason it seems that it was necessary to see it written in golden letters too. After becoming Alaaris, i saw my dragon. He seemed huge the first time i saw it. Black dragon, with golden spikes on his head, and beautiful glowing eyes ( the pupil was red and yellow, shaped like the pupils of a cat). He was slim and was leaning on his 4 legs, but i remember seeing him leaning on his hind legs. The connection with the dragon was wonderful. At some point, he entered my heart chakra and turned into a whirl. The whole area was ticklish and the overall feeling was great. He showed me a symbol that might represent that i am connected to some species of birds. It consists of 3-5 circles, and of 3 ovals on each side of the large circle. (drawing to be added soon). I tried to focus more on my dragon, I was trying to get a better look of him...of the details. I saw one of his wings.It looked like the wing of a bat, with some sort of an outer skeleton. It was white-light grey and black. One of the last things he did before the session was over was to activate my crown chakra. Will update this after my dragon either takes me on a trip to the world he comes from or he tells me about it.  souly: beetles: they allow for personal transformations that occur when one walks through a door.. we all have beetle aspects.. so it seems that one who has strong beetle energies can help one find doors into themselves.. via identifying thoughts that keep the doors hidden.. Golden color is that of the eternal.. it never tarnishes.. or fades.. the mouth is our expression and it has 3 tentacles by it's mouth.. so it has the ability to express the synthesis of things.. 3 unifies understanding.. it connects the 2 opposing forces and allows for a new condition/understanding.. : the guide posses the energies of transformation through psychic sensitivities (beetle/squid) that allow for doors to be found and walked through.. to allow for new opportunities of understanding oneself. Lucid Dream 23.01.2001 I doubt that posting it here is of any significance if you expect to find some kind of information related to Ariana and such but it may prove to be of some interest as compared to other dreams. Besides i'm working on finding out if there are any patterns in my way of learning things, evolution and since lucid dreams and out of body experiences have always been what i've done best, i guess they are worth mentioning. The dream It took place at night. I was in my flat when i heard some noise coming from the backyard. So i looked out of the window and there was a family of monkeys (that's what i thought at first). Several people were looking at them and their cries got our attention. I called one of them, that seemed from afar to be a cub, but when it climbed the 2 storeys up to my place and came in, I noticed that it wasn't a monkey at all, but a humanoid... At first I was kinda scared but after seeing that it looked like something familiar in a way, I (like all other people) started ...umm feeding it. I mean I gave her cookies and such. I remember my mother going through the trouble of making some sort of cake for them but it looked more like a web made of thin cakes... Strange. I didn't wake up (become aware that i was dreaming) yet. Next, I was in a car with a friend of mine and I (*i can't drive in real life) was driving the car, which suddenly made me think in the sense of becoming more aware of what i was supposed to do and where i was going. I got to a sort of huge mall but filled with all sorts of pets. Hamsters, doves, parrots and such. I remember walking through it with the speed of light...lol or almost. Near the exit, there was this elderly man. He looked at me and made some comments about some golfish. By this time I had woken up. We took an elevator and went to some upper floor. He told me something which i cannot remember, but seeing that he spoke so fluently and he seemed awake, I asked him whether he was a higher being or a dead person, etc. ( any type that is usually active on the astral and that seems to be more aware and conscious than lucid dreamers). He didn't reply but he came closer and started kissing me. Now, I may be speculating here a bit too much but his kiss resembled a lot the ...shock when fighting with an ally.(---inorganic being, may be similar to guides but i am not all that sure yet, anyway the operate on a different energy band, have a different frequency, etc. Their awareness is huge as compared to ours but they have little energy). Back to the contact with the creature... I meant to say that his energy resembled that of the ally to some extent. After this happened/ or maybe before? i am not really sure, I was looking at the furniture and turned away from the man, because i lost my focus if i stared at him. In any case, he asked me something and I replied that this was the way to keep my focus and that all seemed to glitter instead of fading, I assumed that we were in a Separate reality, not at all a place i had created in my mind. (--see Carlos Castaneda). After we kissed, he moved away and changed his appearance. He looked like someone i knew. I thought that it might really be that person, except that they didn't quite feel the same. However allies have taken his shape before, so I wouldn't be surprised if it happened again. Lol..though allies aren't as good kissers. He disappeared and soon after that i woke up back in my bed. The conclusions would be that : 1. the monkey/kid was definitely a scout (inorganic being coming from different worlds in search of... Knowledge maybe?) 2. we were feeding it=giving energy and information 3. the scout helped me become aware. His/her cry were very effective in helping me wake up. They acted as warning signals. 4. the man may very well be a dreamer, though he could have said so. 5. that place i visited was helping me sustain everything. The dream lasted a while and it was perhaps due to the energies coming from there. 6. I still have a huge astral cord, coming from my heart chakra related to the man. That's a sign that there are some unfinished business between us, but I've always felt a sort of spirit love for him and it was a dependency free type of love. Weird experience in 3d involving allies (pls MarriAna i'm waiting for your feedback on this since you mentioned to have had some similar experiences). 3 am, 8.02. 2002 I woke up and noticed that there was a guy/mean looking boy near my bed. I don't think that i was dreaming. i got really panicky as i thought that this Obviously ally was so close to me and wanted to do smth to me...which could have been nice or not so pleasant. Anyway i freaked out, i was literally scared to death as i flew over me and seemed to be holding me. however i remembered that some nagual in Castaneda's books loved his allies, then i remembered what Michael (my teacher) was telling about the fact that these are tests meant to see whether i had overcome my fear or not and so my fear diminished. actually it vanished altogether. i was thinking at the time that fear was the way my body had been taught to react not necessarily my mind. the ally seemed to be walking on my back for what seemed like an eternity...(lol at some point, apart from the fact that i was slightly dizzy, it seemed boring). i felt smth as if some shields had been attached to me. during the entire experience i heard a very high piched sound in my ears. Lol and as i was becoming less and less focused i started singing Italian songs in my head. one of the last things my ally did was to enter throught the back of my head and produce some sort of whirl, as if he was playing with a spoon and melting & stirring my brain. that was it. anyway it lasted for at least half an hour and the last thing he did really got me dizzy and unfocused but at the same time it was a very pleasant feeling. Before waking up here for good i saw myself ...umm i was looking at myself as i sat in the bed????. i should probably also mention that in the beginning when i was afraid i also felt that i was paralyzed, and from some previous encounters i know for a fact that lol i was indeed so. what do i make of it? well 1. i think he installed some new shields 2.i passed the test and got rid of my fear 3.he (by mixing things in my left side of the brain) increased my awareness and abilities. waiting for your feedback on this MarriAna here, well if you say that is what it is then that is it. Sounds right to me. I might add that the walking on your back might be about opening your backside to further access. It has to do with surrendering to something which is behind oneīs back, thus not facing it, thus it requires a higher degree of, umm, trust. You already know about the portal in the back of my head, which was opened months ago, figure your experience is about the same portal. What do those shields look like and where are they? Alaaris here...i don't know what my shields look like, i only felt them on each side of my body. 17.02.2002 Now i'd like to post a short, weird dream i've had last night and can't quite remember entirely. Tell me what you make of it, ok? I was in a room...umm it looked like a greyish ugly place with 2 storeys but no walls...you could see everything...to my right there was a window..i knew i had been here before and i knew that i'd remember remembering...er does that make sense? to the left , after a corner, in the garbage pile there was a box with 3 birds..mean ones. I felt like my allies were around. (kinda freaked me out). returned here and then had another oobe..i was back in that place and now there was an ally that looked like my granny and said (referring to the fatc that there were 3 birds) wait till you face/fight 3 identical witches....???? he disappeared and i don't remember what i was doing..i was dizzy.loosing my focus....don't know why but started calling MarriAna...i was shouting her name. the end i just remembered that before this dream i've had another in which there was this guy i was looking at. the scenery was like in a fantasy land...grey-green, glittering, and all...he was wearing a golden-silvery shirt and had all kinds of sharks around him...the sharks would come and bite him but no harm would come to him because of that shirt/plate/shield and he was showing this to us ...strange. Gave me a nasty feeling when waking up I'm not really sure that this was another test of my fears. I don't fear allies, lol but 3 mean identical (even seen the sign while dreaming for identical) witches??  MarriAna here, okay, these are the three witches (immediately came to mind when I read that). They represent the 3 norns (sp) Urd, Werdandi and Skuld, the 3 fate-goddesses, one weaving the Past, one the Present, one the Future. So, yes, when you interact with all 3 of them at once, you will have accessed your point of power which is in the Now and from which you can create your past and your future too. It is about taking on past present and future at the same >time<. Grey-green glittering sounds like Ariana. was the scenery moving faster than usual, or not? This is going to sound weird, but anyway: Hoor-Par-Kraat is the god of silence, shown as a baby in a blue egg. A male Egyptian deity representing the unknown true Self, the silent potential, a part of Horus. Now, he is pictured on the Nile with crocodiles all around him but they canīt hurt him, because his shield of silence protects him (blue egg). I accidentally looked all this up cause my guide said that name, Hoor-Par-Kraat, and I didnīt know what to make of it. Here, it seems to fit. Now, my interpretations: The sharks are illusions. To understand what this implies, and what illusions are in this context, go read my latest channeling, hehe. (Obfuscation and Knowledge) Not sure about the rooms without walls... I had a dream a few days ago where there was a sort of tunnel system with lots and lots of grey huge walls... which went waaay up so one couldnīt even see the ceiling which was in darkness... and there was an untidy backyard with garbage too... and I went there and met some undefined entity (invisible, I seemed to know it, I remembered I had met it here before) ..no idea how this fits together, but again, it immediately reminded of that dream when I read yours. Itīs funny, it almost sounds like I saw the walls you didnīt see, cause the place was really predominantly made of walls, the rooms or tunnels were small compared to the giant walls which surrounded them... while you noticed the unusual lack of walls in your dream. I remember meeting friends in this weird tunnel system (grey maze?)... hm. Lucid dream--experience with allies 04.03.2002 Last night i've had the first lucid dream after a loong long time (2 weeks) of vague dreams. It started like this. i was in bed, and hovering over me there was this wave which i immediately identified as being an ally. it made me lol increasingly aware of everything and i was wondering what it would do. as expected, it floated over me and seemed to paralyze me again. I remembered smth common to all my experiences with allies: when it first comes over me there is smth like a wind/whirl over my face and i can't breathe properly. it happened in this dream as well. i didn't like it one bit (lol who's fond of suffocation?) and i think i waved my hand through the cloud/ally and tried to hit it with something at hand (a lamp by my bed). The ally didn smth kinda strange. He went into my chest but i can't remember if i inhaled it in a way...energetically speaking...lol There were several powerful whirls, i had the most acute feeling of awareness in my chest, arms and neck. it felt like ticklish energy whirls and was overall very pleasant. The end. Now i have to wonder, was the ally healing me of whatever problems i have with my lungs ? maybe like giving me some extra energy in that area or opening some chakra? I doubt he worked on my chakras because i felt it in a large area. i don't know. in any case why does that nasty thing has to happen every time (meaning when i seem to inhale smth different than air?) When i finally woke up here i forgot to mention that the lamp i used against the ally hadn't been touched. Even better because it was a silly idea...lol i thought i had to embrace whatever..maybe next time. waiting to see what you make of this. MarriAna here, donīt know, but to me it sounds natural, if you have lung troubles and something 'took away your breath' and gave you trouble breathing, you would have to face the issue which caused it again on some level to cleanse it. Does sound like a cleansing, maybe return of chi. Brought something back to you, probably the issue which caused the lungs problem in the first place. So, you feel the symptoms again, when you inhale it. So you can learn to deal with it and integrate it. Which color did the whirling energy/cloud have; was it hot or cold or...? Maybe past life issue; drowned; or inhaled poison? |
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